{"id":6287,"date":"2017-01-05T10:18:33","date_gmt":"2017-01-05T15:18:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.inthineheart.com\/staging\/8143\/?p=6287"},"modified":"2017-01-05T20:44:22","modified_gmt":"2017-01-06T01:44:22","slug":"lord-heal-my-soul-my-story","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.inthineheart.com\/staging\/8143\/2017\/01\/05\/lord-heal-my-soul-my-story\/","title":{"rendered":"“Lord…Heal My Soul” – My Story"},"content":{"rendered":"

“I said, LORD, be merciful unto me: heal my soul; for I have sinned against thee.” Psalm 41:4<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

The above verse is one that stood out to me yesterday morning\u00a0– in particular, the phrase “heal my soul”. Although\u00a0I didn’t take the time to\u00a0study it further, the phrase stayed in\u00a0the\u00a0back of my mind as\u00a0the girls and I went on up to town to run\u00a0our errands before our Wednesday night service.<\/p>\n

While out-and-about, the Lord allowed\u00a0us to cross paths with a sister-in-Christ…one\u00a0I haven’t\u00a0seen in a few\u00a0years. After embracing, we stood and talked for a good 20-30 minutes as we enjoyed catching up on the news of our families.\u00a0When we finally said our good-byes, I\u00a0walked away\u00a0with\u00a0a smile. It\u00a0had been so good to see this dear lady!<\/p>\n

Our next stop found me walking around rather aimlessly. Although I had gone to look at fabric, my mind was\u00a0preoccupied with what\u00a0had just taken place. As I continued to muse, the Lord brought to my mind once again, “heal my soul”.<\/em> <\/strong>It was then that I began to\u00a0fully realize what had\u00a0taken place just moments before…<\/p>\n

About\u00a0nine or so years ago, God allowed our family to enter into a season of testing. As the season continued on and the\u00a0trials intensified, something began to take place in my heart. Instead of embracing these trials as God’s will for my life at that time and trusting HIM to take control and see me through them, I\u00a0found myself attempting to fight my own battles. The results\u00a0of these continual attempts were\u00a0repeated failure accompanied by many battle wounds,\u00a0and eventually…I say this to my shame…bitterness.<\/p>\n

During these\u00a0years, I actually\u00a0came in contact\u00a0with the lady mentioned above on a regular basis. As the Lord led both of our families in different directions, with the exception of an occasional wave from across a store, our contact in recent years\u00a0had been nonexistent. In the past, although we saw each other quite frequently, I really can’t say that our fellowship was ever as sweet as it was yesterday. Yesterday’s conversation found both of us making statements such as:<\/p>\n

“I’m praying more.”<\/em><\/p>\n

“I have peace.”<\/em><\/p>\n

“I’m growing.”<\/em><\/p>\n

What…or should I say WHO made the difference in our time of communion? God. Only God.\u00a0By her own testimony as well as mine, God had been\u00a0doing a work\u00a0in both of our lives. I am reminded of\u00a0the following verse:<\/p>\n

“The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound;” Isaiah 61:1<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

In the past, I have written or shared from other writers articles\u00a0relating to “Bitterness” and “Forgiveness”. As\u00a0the case often is, these posts were reflective of what the Lord\u00a0had recently taught or was currently teaching me. Bitterness is a\u00a0sin of which I have often warned my own children.\u00a0Because I have seen\u00a0firsthand the devastating effects it can have\u00a0in an individual’s life – both physically and spiritually\u00a0– bitterness is something from which\u00a0I have\u00a0often pleaded with the Lord\u00a0to spare me.\u00a0Bitterness is bondage.<\/p>\n

In the last three and a half years, the Lord has allowed\u00a0our family\u00a0to sit under the preaching and teaching of a pastor who is committed to “preach good tidings unto the meek…bind up the brokenhearted…proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound”. <\/em><\/strong>Although the trials have not ceased, three and a half years ago, the Lord led us to a place where healing could begin.<\/p>\n

No, the hurts that God has allowed our family to experience in\u00a0no way compare to the fiery trials of many other believers. Nevertheless, were it not for the grace of God, I know\u00a0I could be sidelined today. Were it not for the Lord giving me the\u00a0desire as well as the strength to choose forgiveness, I know yesterday would have never happened.<\/p>\n

Yesterday, God allowed me to see that He has indeed heard my cry and seen my tears. Yesterday, God allowed me to see that He\u00a0is\u00a0answering\u00a0my prayers of:<\/p>\n

“God, I need your help”<\/em><\/p>\n

“Lord, I want to forgive”<\/em><\/p>\n

“Please, God, help me not to harbor bitterness”<\/em><\/p>\n

Yesterday, I realized the Lord is healing my soul. I am so very grateful to Him for His mercy in my life.<\/p>\n

“Bring my soul out of prison, that I may praise thy name: the righteous shall compass me about; for thou shalt deal bountifully with me.” Psalm 142:7<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

“I said, LORD, be merciful unto me: heal my soul; for I have sinned against thee.” Psalm 41:4 The above verse is one that stood out to me yesterday morning\u00a0– in particular, the phrase “heal my soul”. Although\u00a0I didn’t take the time to\u00a0study it further, the phrase stayed in\u00a0the\u00a0back of my mind as\u00a0the girls and I went on up to town to run\u00a0our errands before our Wednesday night service. While out-and-about, the Lord allowed\u00a0us to cross paths with a sister-in-Christ…one\u00a0I haven’t\u00a0seen in a few\u00a0years. After embracing, we stood and talked for a good 20-30 minutes as we enjoyed catching up on the news of our families.\u00a0When we finally said our good-byes, I\u00a0walked away\u00a0with\u00a0a smile. It\u00a0had been so good to see this dear lady! Our next stop found me walking around rather aimlessly. Although I had gone to look at fabric, my mind was\u00a0preoccupied with what\u00a0had just taken place. As I continued to muse, the Lord brought to my mind once again, “heal my soul”. It was then that I began to\u00a0fully realize what had\u00a0taken place just moments before… About\u00a0nine or so years ago, God allowed our family to enter into a season of testing. As the season continued on and the\u00a0trials intensified, something began to take place in my heart. Instead of embracing these trials as God’s will for my life at that time and trusting HIM to take control and see me through them, I\u00a0found myself attempting to fight my own battles. The results\u00a0of these continual attempts were\u00a0repeated failure accompanied by many battle wounds,\u00a0and eventually…I say this to my shame…bitterness. During these\u00a0years, I actually\u00a0came in contact\u00a0with the lady mentioned above on a regular basis. As the Lord led both of our families in different directions, with the exception of an occasional wave from across a store, our contact in recent years\u00a0had been nonexistent. In the past, although we saw each other quite frequently, I really can’t say that our fellowship was ever as sweet as it was yesterday. Yesterday’s conversation found both of us making statements such as: “I’m praying more.” “I have peace.” “I’m growing.” What…or should I say WHO made the difference in our time of communion? God. Only God.\u00a0By her own testimony as well as mine, God had been\u00a0doing a work\u00a0in both of our lives. I am reminded of\u00a0the following verse: “The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound;” Isaiah 61:1 In the past, I have written or shared from other writers articles\u00a0relating to “Bitterness” and “Forgiveness”. As\u00a0the case often is, these posts were reflective of what the Lord\u00a0had recently taught or was currently teaching me. Bitterness is a\u00a0sin of which I have often warned my own children.\u00a0Because I have seen\u00a0firsthand the devastating effects it can have\u00a0in an individual’s life – both physically and spiritually\u00a0– bitterness is something from which\u00a0I have\u00a0often pleaded with the Lord\u00a0to spare me.\u00a0Bitterness is bondage. In the last three and a half years, the Lord has allowed\u00a0our family\u00a0to sit under the preaching and teaching of a pastor who is committed to “preach good tidings unto the meek…bind up the brokenhearted…proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound”. Although the trials have not ceased, three and a half years ago, the Lord led us to a place where healing could begin. No, the hurts that God has allowed our family to experience in\u00a0no way compare to the fiery trials of many other believers. Nevertheless, were it not for the grace of God, I know\u00a0I could be sidelined today. Were it not for the Lord giving me the\u00a0desire as well as the strength to choose forgiveness, I know yesterday would have never happened. Yesterday, God allowed me to see that He has indeed heard my cry and seen my tears. Yesterday, God allowed me to see that He\u00a0is\u00a0answering\u00a0my prayers of: “God, I need your help” “Lord, I want to forgive” “Please, God, help me not to harbor bitterness” Yesterday, I realized the Lord is healing my soul. I am so very grateful to Him for His mercy in my life. “Bring my soul out of prison, that I may praise thy name: the righteous shall compass me about; for thou shalt deal bountifully with me.” Psalm 142:7<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":true,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[28,62,51,23,7,33,65,10],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6287","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-anger","category-backsliding","category-forgiveness","category-grace","category-growing","category-guarding-from-sin","category-relationships","category-restoration"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p4o6C2-1Dp","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.inthineheart.com\/staging\/8143\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6287","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.inthineheart.com\/staging\/8143\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.inthineheart.com\/staging\/8143\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.inthineheart.com\/staging\/8143\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.inthineheart.com\/staging\/8143\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6287"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.inthineheart.com\/staging\/8143\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6287\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6288,"href":"https:\/\/www.inthineheart.com\/staging\/8143\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6287\/revisions\/6288"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.inthineheart.com\/staging\/8143\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6287"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.inthineheart.com\/staging\/8143\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6287"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.inthineheart.com\/staging\/8143\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6287"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}